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Posted: Wed Dec 17, 2003 8:59 am Post subject:
.....What the heck is going on??????? I can't believe it .. I.. I... I don't know what to say. I don't know how to express the feelings I'm having right now., much less put them acurately into words...I shall try though... (futile, I know)
I'm stunned, truly stunned!!!!! I don't know what to do now... what''s the point of going on? Really, what is the point?? I've invested 4 years of my life into this woman ( I realize some have invested more, some less. Depending on when you discovered her...). We all know we won't ever be with her, we know she'll never know us personally, we get that.. we accept that part of it, and knew what we were getting ourselves into after that first little while.....And then we become entranced by that smile, and those eyes, and we realize that there in nobody better in this world, nobody.... we don't even have to see all the others because we know it would be pointless...
We cherish this woman!! We would do anything for her, even though we don't really know her, other than what we see and hear on the screen and printed page. Our lives revolve around her, from checking Torisan's site daily for new pics, to blowing money on dorama dvd's from Japan with no eng. subs on them (I haven't gone THAT extreme yet, though I"m sure others have). Any female aquaintance in our lives are instantly compared to RH, to see if they measure up to the ideals that we have in our heads of her.... Is this girl as pretty as Ryoko? Is that girl as nice as Ryoko? Does this girl make me feel the same as I do about Ryoko, or not as much (because it could never be 'more' than Ryoko...)? These are questions we constantly ask ourselves everyday as we live our lives!
We tailor our spending to be able to afford that new photobook or VCD. Some of us (myself included) tell very few people about our love for Ryoko and what she means to us, because we know that even if we COULD find all the right words to describe the depth of our devotion and feeling for her (which simply isn't possible by the way, in case someone is brave enough to try), that person simply wouldn't get it! They would think that either we're crazy, or worse!... and afterwards, when we offer to lend them our copy of the "No Make" book or 'Wasabi' dvd, they try to politely say 'no thanks' because we're breathing heavy and foaming at the mouth from the exitement of just thinking about touching those precious Hirosue items for the 1000th time that day (or 2000th, depending on how hardcore you are).
Ahh. heck.... as I type, the pain starts to subside ever so slowly, the burden of being in this position is getting a tiny bit lighter....BUT, tonight when I go to sleep, even though I can never be with Ryoko, even though she will never know me, or see me, or get an opportunity to talk to me, ... and even though I love her with all my heart and truly want her to be happy, I'm going to cry myself to sleep. I might do the same tomorrow, maybe the day after that too (or not, I dunno). I guess I'll keep doing it till the pain subsides enough that I won't have to do it anymore.... that's it
I hope I've helped other Ryoko Hirosue fans (hardcore fans, casual ones, and everything inbetween). I hope I was able to be a voice for what you all feel inside. I'm sorry for the long post, but any RH fan will tell you that it was necessary. As I look out my window, I can't see the moon shining tonight. I guess that's appropriate.... as the bright light in my heart that shines for Ryoko, has grown dim...for now.....Just keep crying till it doesn't hurt anymore, that's what I'm gonna do!
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Posted: Wed Dec 17, 2003 9:10 am Post subject:
bexpress wrote:
.....What the heck is going on??????? I can't believe it .. I.. I... I don't know what to say. I don't know how to express the feelings I'm having right now., much less put them acurately into words...I shall try though... (futile, I know)
I'm stunned, truly stunned!!!!! I don't know what to do now... what''s the point of going on? Really, what is the point?? I've invested 4 years of my life into this woman ( I realize some have invested more, some less. Depending on when you discovered her...). We all know we won't ever be with her, we know she'll never know us personally, we get that.. we accept that part of it, and knew what we were getting ourselves into after that first little while.....And then we become entranced by that smile, and those eyes, and we realize that there in nobody better in this world, nobody.... we don't even have to see all the others because we know it would be pointless...
We cherish this woman!! We would do anything for her, even though we don't really know her, other than what we see and hear on the screen and printed page. Our lives revolve around her, from checking Torisan's site daily for new pics, to blowing money on dorama dvd's from Japan with no eng. subs on them (I haven't gone THAT extreme yet, though I"m sure others have). Any female aquaintance in our lives are instantly compared to RH, to see if they measure up to the ideals that we have in our heads of her.... Is this girl as pretty as Ryoko? Is that girl as nice as Ryoko? Does this girl make me feel the same as I do about Ryoko, or not as much (because it could never be 'more' than Ryoko...)? These are questions we constantly ask ourselves everyday as we live our lives!
We tailor our spending to be able to afford that new photobook or VCD. Some of us (myself included) tell very few people about our love for Ryoko and what she means to us, because we know that even if we COULD find all the right words to describe the depth of our devotion and feeling for her (which simply isn't possible by the way, in case someone is brave enough to try), that person simply wouldn't get it! They would think that either we're crazy, or worse!... and afterwards, when we offer to lend them our copy of the "No Make" book or 'Wasabi' dvd, they try to politely say 'no thanks' because we're breathing heavy and foaming at the mouth from the exitement of just thinking about touching those precious Hirosue items for the 1000th time that day (or 2000th, depending on how hardcore you are).
Ahh. heck.... as I type, the pain starts to subside ever so slowly, the burden of being in this position is getting a tiny bit lighter....BUT, tonight when I go to sleep, even though I can never be with Ryoko, even though she will never know me, or see me, or get an opportunity to talk to me, ... and even though I love her with all my heart and truly want her to be happy, I'm going to cry myself to sleep. I might do the same tomorrow, maybe the day after that too (or not, I dunno). I guess I'll keep doing it till the pain subsides enough that I won't have to do it anymore.... that's it
I hope I've helped other Ryoko Hirosue fans (hardcore fans, casual ones, and everything inbetween). I hope I was able to be a voice for what you all feel inside. I'm sorry for the long post, but any RH fan will tell you that it was necessary. As I look out my window, I can't see the moon shining tonight. I guess that's appropriate.... as the bright light in my heart that shines for Ryoko, has grown dim...for now.....Just keep crying till it doesn't hurt anymore, that's what I'm gonna do!
Woah, that's devotion!!! _________________
Himawari, yureru, taiyou no shita de..
Kanjiteita, kaze wo... kimi wo.
Joined: 04 Nov 2003 Posts: 602 Location: United Kingdom Country:
Posted: Wed Dec 17, 2003 11:10 am Post subject:
Game-RH wrote:
you seem to have alot of hirosue pics.....and i can't see the pics from the show death's promise
Yeah, I just wanna share what I have with all the other Ryoko Hirosue fans.. also wanna help Ren out a little..
Also still trying to get over the "trauma" of her latest news..
Lemme see if I can rectify the Death's Promise pics.. it's from her official site anyways.. but I thought it would be nice to have it here.. (Itshould work now)
Trying to find good pics of her in Summer Snow.. I don't have many.. _________________
Himawari, yureru, taiyou no shita de..
Kanjiteita, kaze wo... kimi wo.
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Joined: 27 Nov 2003 Posts: 79 Location: Austria Country:
Posted: Wed Dec 17, 2003 10:49 pm Post subject:
let me say it this way, first of, tastes are differently... let's be happy about that, or would you all want everyone to be a Takako Matsu fanor an RH fan, or etc etc. That would a "bit" boring.
Also, RH is RH, Matsu is Matsu (just as example ), comparing them is like arguing about which shade of a certain colour is the best ever. Everyone has his/her ups and downs, pros and cons, good sides and bad ones, etc etc... Sorry, didn't want to preach...
And well, Yahoo.jp has a video of the press conference. Honestly, I understood jack in it ( ), but well, when seeing her in that video, I didn't need to understand anything anyone said in it. I mean, I can't remember seeing her smiling as relaxed and happy as there for a quite long time. And her eyes gave away how happy she really is. Bright, shining eyes. I think that says enough.
Judging from her eyes I'd say she's very happy, extremly happy, etc. And that's GOOD!
I have to admit, I don't really care that much for the marrige. I just hope the pregnancy goes well and the child'll be healthy (and a girl, as cute as she is, with her eyes ). Yesterday I had a weird thought while I was at work. I was imagining her in 5-6 years with the kid and had a flashback to Summersnow, the scene when Yukari hides behind Yuki lol.
I don't see how it sucks to be an RH fan atm, possibly cause I prefer titling myself an admirer and not a fan. I respect and admire her acting abilities and yes, her cuteness *makes face*
As for the marriage, it might work, it might now, there's no guarantee, we'll see about that in the future. Though, as long as she's happy and the kid's alright, it's good. Period.
And if that guy hurts her somehow, well, we can always form an angry mob and invade Japan to get his butt and... *eyeshift* errrr... I didn't just say that... *eyeshift, hides baseball-bat*
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.. I.. I... I don't know what to say. I don't know how to express the feelings I'm having right now., much less put them acurately into words...I shall try though... (futile, I know)
and u watched before death's promise......where u got it from? 
I've read her entire Marriage Interview in Tokyo script.
), comparing them is like arguing about which shade of a certain colour is the best ever. Everyone has his/her ups and downs, pros and cons, good sides and bad ones, etc etc... Sorry, didn't want to preach...
