tissue-paper wrote:

FINALLY I FOUND IT!!!! *relief* credits to Batsu forum XD DEFECTIVE TRAGEDY PLASTIC CASE�fs reminder SUICIDE MUSIC Lawful PSYCHO on an undamaged RED LINE (sick from the imitating thoughts Yeah, BACKBONE melts into FRENZY) MELANCHOLY AND RAZOR PLAY (yeah, it bends my BACKBONE) My head�fs full of thorns my black eyelids and lips Soothing darkness is MY PLACE I write on the broken blade There�fs no help in a mouth of lies if only I can forget these words UNSTABLE HOBBY It gnaws at your brain. Envy mind and abnormal shudder It gnaws at your brain. Envy mind and tenacity of purpose Sad razor play�c So cold day Scream your self�c Drain your self�c Without forget to yearn for liberty Scream your self�c Scream your pain Without concealing the selves waking up, in the red I saw, I felt near �gyou�h With repeating sounds, I see a ripped page Your facial expression, cut to pieces, deep KISS (mask the love, promise with me join over with despair) MELANCHOLY AND RAZOR PLAY Yeah, join with it SLOW COLD RAIN piled up wishes SLOW COLD RAIN melt them into the loneliness and don�ft detach them from these hands So I can feel near because the 'you' of that letter was everything SLOW COLD RAIN It goes along in the cheek. It is not possible to escape. PLASTIC CASE�fs reminder SUICIDE MUSIC Lawful PSYCHO on an Undamaged RED LINE (sick from the imitating thoughts Yeah, BACKBONE melts into FRENZY) MELANCHOLY AND RAZOR PLAY (yeah, it bends my BACKBONE) A desire in the future The desire of that day surely, in 'you�f Together in a moment that desire changed, A forced ideal I wished only for it to fall UNSTABLE IDEA extending these hands and stepping forward with these feet the loss dances in the square mini garden

THANK YOU!

tissue-paper wrote:

eh?! you just pisted! haas, i didn't see it. yeah, I was once a self-harmer too. for the whole of the past 2 years. haas, but not now anymore XD

Same here, I was a selfharmer for about 2 years. On my birthday, 3rd November, it'd be two years since i stopped

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

Same here, I was a selfharmer for about 2 years. On my birthday, 3rd November, it'd be two years since i stopped

my mum use to cry when she saw those lines on my wrist. she says it hurts her a lot.

I'm much more happier now though so, no more self-harming. yay, clean wrist XD LOLS!!

tissue-paper wrote:

my mum use to cry when she saw those lines on my wrist. she says it hurts her a lot. I'm much more happier now though so, no more self-harming. yay, clean wrist XD LOLS!!

Same here, clean wrists and feeling a lot better. Things still get difficult and sometimes I want to start doing it again but thankfully I've stopped and i dont wnat to start that hell again. My mom and dad found out about 3 months after i stopped selfharming. The bitch assistant head of my school had found a story i wrote that it involved self harm but it had a happy ending and she assumed that the story was about me but it was really about my friend and then she went and told my family that i self harm but in actual fact I'd already stopped for 3 months. Stupid assistant headmistress. She put me through hell cos my whole family knows I used to self harm now.

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

Same here, clean wrists and feeling a lot better. Things still get difficult and sometimes I want to start doing it again but thankfully I've stopped and i dont wnat to start that hell again. My mom and dad found out about 3 months after i stopped selfharming. The bitch assistant head of my school had found a story i wrote that it involved self harm but it had a happy ending and she assumed that the story was about me but it was really about my friend and then she went and told my family that i self harm but in actual fact I'd already stopped for 3 months. Stupid assistant headmistress. She put me through hell cos my whole family knows I used to self harm now.

my secondary 1 math teacher was such a busy body too! she sends me to the counselling session at school. grrrs, extra her =.=

yea, sometimes, felt like doing it again, because it's so depressed and don't know what to do. But still, I forced myself not to do that again. and I threw away all the blades I once used. haas!

tissue-paper wrote:

my secondary 1 math teacher was such a busy body too! she sends me to the counselling session at school. grrrs, extra her =.= yea, sometimes, felt like doing it again, because it's so depressed and don't know what to do. But still, I forced myself not to do that again. and I threw away all the blades I once used. haas!

Ah i still have some extra blades some places, though I havent used them again. Will power is all we need, thats what I believe! (Another reason I love Uruha, he believes completely in will power)

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

Ah i still have some extra blades some places, though I havent used them again. Will power is all we need, thats what I believe! (Another reason I love Uruha, he believes completely in will power)

yea, will power

hohohos!! If there's a will, there's a way. hahahas, I don't even know what am I talking about. but I heard that phrase very often XD

I burned the decompostion beauty tour into a CD. and, the quality sucks

tissue-paper wrote:

yea, will power hohohos!! If there's a will, there's a way. hahahas, I don't even know what am I talking about. but I heard that phrase very often XD I burned the decompostion beauty tour into a CD. and, the quality sucks

I have a copy of decomposition beauty on the computer, havent had time to burn it to a cd yet so i dont know what the quality is like on cd but on the computer its fine.

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

I have a copy of decomposition beauty on the computer, havent had time to burn it to a cd yet so i dont know what the quality is like on cd but on the computer its fine.

yea, on the computer it's totally fine. the quality is really good...

but on the CD... *sighs* forget it. it's already burned. hahas!

tissue-paper wrote:

yea, on the computer it's totally fine. the quality is really good... but on the CD... *sighs* forget it. it's already burned. hahas!

Lol, i want to get a hardcopy of decomposition beauty, might get it for my birthday.

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

Lol, i want to get a hardcopy of decomposition beauty, might get it for my birthday.

ah, I hate HMV.

I want to order from CDJapan! but considering the shipping fees, postage fees, I'm afraid I don't have enough I yesterday actually wanted to order Stacked Rubbish. but in the end, I closed the window =/

tissue-paper wrote:

ah, I hate HMV. I want to order from CDJapan! but considering the shipping fees, postage fees, I'm afraid I don't have enough I yesterday actually wanted to order Stacked Rubbish. but in the end, I closed the window =/

I want a hardcopy of both Decomposition Beauty and Stacked Rubbish but I definitely want a copy of Decomposition Beauty first! Then if I can I'll get Stacked Rubbish

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

I want a hardcopy of both Decomposition Beauty and Stacked Rubbish but I definitely want a copy of Decomposition Beauty first! Then if I can I'll get Stacked Rubbish

yea, I want too! but, but... *sighs*

btw, have you heard of this Miyavi's song: Coo Quack Cluck' ?

tissue-paper wrote:

yea, I want too! but, but... *sighs* btw, have you heard of this Miyavi's song: Coo Quack Cluck' ?

Ah i dont listen to Miyavi, i dont know anything about his new stuff. Just that he's part of S.K.I.N

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

Ah i dont listen to Miyavi, i dont know anything about his new stuff. Just that he's part of S.K.I.N

I don't listen to Miyavi's song that often. but my friend say Coo Quack Cluck is nice. she sent me. and it's really nice! XD

S.K.I.N ??

tissue-paper wrote:

I don't listen to Miyavi's song that often. but my friend say Coo Quack Cluck is nice. she sent me. and it's really nice! XD S.K.I.N ??

S.K.I.N is some group that was formed a couple of months ago. There's Gackt, Miyavi, some guy from X Japan and some other guy from Luna Sea. They're apparently really good and they already premiered in the US.

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

S.K.I.N is some group that was formed a couple of months ago. There's Gackt, Miyavi, some guy from X Japan and some other guy from Luna Sea. They're apparently really good and they already premiered in the US.

ah... ic....

actually it's really quite a pity about the disband of X-Japan. just because hIde died. blahs, I still wonder why he wants to suicide

tissue-paper wrote:

ah... ic.... actually it's really quite a pity about the disband of X-Japan. just because hIde died. blahs, I still wonder why he wants to suicide

Ah some people think he didnt comit suicide; that he actually failed AEA

AngelOfNeglect wrote:

Ah some people think he didnt comit suicide; that he actually failed AEA

what's AEA ?

grrrs, my room's light is spoilt =.= makes it so difficult to type. it's 1.21am here. haas

tissue-paper wrote:

what's AEA ? grrrs, my room's light is spoilt =.= makes it so difficult to type. it's 1.21am here. haas

You're still young-ish so i shouldnt be explainin stuff like this lol

But AEA is when guys tigh strangle themselves or hang themselves to enhance their...sexual pleasure, even when they're by themselves. it tends to be why some guys and some girls like being strangled during sex. The flaw of AEA is that sometimes you get so caught up in the pleasure you forget to loosen whatever's strangling you and you end up dieing. Millions of american celebrities die like that(there's even a CSI episode of it) but in Japan its a bit more rare. Actually, hide is the only person who is rumoured to have died that way.