hello,minna san
firstly, i wanna apologise for my earlier posts
i realise that they were may be rude, inappropriate, uncomfortable or offensive to some of you.
i hope u guys could forgive me..
once again, deep inside my heart, i apologise to any who got offended by..
i acknowledged that im being fanatic and narrow-minded which i shouldnt be
so gomene..
frankly im too obsessed with Yamapi.. *dunno how to eliminate this feeling*
i cant see anyone but Yamapi..
 
At first (abit till now) i always see Yamapi as the "perfect" one..
Like Yamapi, i dont like to loss to others 
so i dont want him to loss to others *am i not too much?*
i guess i have to change my perception
he is still human afterall..
so what i should do is seeing and accepting things widely
i also should respect other JE artit
As i dont know well about them, i shouldnt critise or judge them...
i know that there are other performers out there who are better than Yamapi  
even in NEWS itself
Koyama is a better MC
Shige is smart and low profile
Ryo has a good voice and sexy (IMO he is sexier than Yamapi which made me envy him)
Yuya has the voice and his acting is good ( he has the "charisma" which Yamapi probably lack of)
Massu has the smile, nice voice and good dance
Kusano has the voice and good dance
Uchi has unique voice and he is funny... *made NEWS more alive*
Moreover,i think we shouldnt be stuck with the past..
for some people (incl. me), past was also the greatest time in their life
Yamapi surely had a great and shining time in the past..
he was one of the best back then along with Toma, 4 Tops and Ryo
but that was the past..and what we face now is present and future
i dont say that he is not that famous right now... *even i thought so*
and yet i dunno how famous he really is in Japan
but then i think again.
there isnt thing that always goes smoothly in this life right.
it always has "up" and "down" time...
I think it also happens to NEWS..
they had the best time in 2004 -2005
so probably 2006 is not "the year" for them...
or we can say that 2006 is the "problematic" year which they have to overcome...
If they are able to pass this "hard" year, i wish they could grow stronger..
there is still long way to go for them..
and probably this year is the year for KT or K8 to shine... * even for me it's hard to accept them*
however my point is we as their fans should support them no matter happen
*not only when they're at the top (in greatest time) but also when they're in hardest time (at the slump)*
that's fans are meant to be..
aarrghh.. sorry for my depressing post..
sorry again if it offends any of u again..
hehehhe..
i just want to share my thought
i dunno whether i made sense here..
heheheh 
it's difficult to me to express truly my feelings..
so it may sound weird..
hahahaha
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