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Found this. A bunch of Japanese playing with Yo Yos.

(The opening song is the same one from IWGP)


A Bunch of "Yo Yos"


I thought only people in Hawaii were still into Yo Yos? :crazy:

Oh well, whatevers

It's 4:30 am and I'm about to hit the sack.

Oyasumi.

:sleep: :sleeping:


Or Ohayo, rather. :beaten:

i feel like shit.

i hate it when ppl find my naiveness annoying. i try soo hard to not be annoying [which i've come to accept that i am] and i did not get any results. in fact, i think i've made the situation worse.

last time someone told me that whatever i said was the wrong things at the wrong time. i really took it seriously. as a result, i only talked when someone converse with me. i never started a conversation. i thought this might solve the issue of me being annoying. the end result was horrible.

lets say out of 10 sentences which i speak, 2 of them were wrong things at the wrong time. it soo happens that now everytime i speak, my sentence fall in that horrible 20%. i think ppl find me more annoying than before. not only that. noone ever wants to come to talk to me. i felt lonely and realised that keeping quiet was dumb. so i decided to talk to 'blend' in.

but the years of keeping my mouth shut has taken effect. i've lost the courage to speak in a group. what comes in my head will only remain in my head. i try soo hard to think of a subject to converse and when something comes up, it only last for 5 sentence max.

i just find that noone understands how i really feel. noone understands what i really mean. and some people take that for granted. it really sux when you can't be who you really are. not because of some restriction or whatsoever, it's because you can't. you've just lost the skill.

to be frank, today i came home crying just for who i am. i feel that there's nothing i can do. i can't kill myself [no guts and it ain't worth it] and i can't rectify this problem [if i can, please god show me].

i just feel SO SAD.


sorry for such a long post. i just can't tell this situation i'm facing all these years to any of my friends or family. i don't know why i just can't. this is my last resort and if i don't let this out, i'm gonna burst like how i did 2 years back.


sorry that i took your time [and bandwidth].

Tekanan wrote:i feel like shit.

i hate it when ppl find my naiveness annoying. i try soo hard to not be annoying [which i've come to accept that i am] and i did not get any results. in fact, i think i've made the situation worse.

last time someone told me that whatever i said was the wrong things at the wrong time. i really took it seriously. as a result, i only talked when someone converse with me. i never started a conversation. i thought this might solve the issue of me being annoying. the end result was horrible.

lets say out of 10 sentences which i speak, 2 of them were wrong things at the wrong time. it soo happens that now everytime i speak, my sentence fall in that horrible 20%. i think ppl find me more annoying than before. not only that. noone ever wants to come to talk to me. i felt lonely and realised that keeping quiet was dumb. so i decided to talk to 'blend' in.

but the years of keeping my mouth shut has taken effect. i've lost the courage to speak in a group. what comes in my head will only remain in my head. i try soo hard to think of a subject to converse and when something comes up, it only last for 5 sentence max.

i just find that noone understands how i really feel. noone understands what i really mean. and some people take that for granted. it really sux when you can't be who you really are. not because of some restriction or whatsoever, it's because you can't. you've just lost the skill.

to be frank, today i came home crying just for who i am. i feel that there's nothing i can do. i can't kill myself [no guts and it ain't worth it] and i can't rectify this problem [if i can, please god show me].

i just feel SO SAD.


sorry for such a long post. i just can't tell this situation i'm facing all these years to any of my friends or family. i don't know why i just can't. this is my last resort and if i don't let this out, i'm gonna burst like how i did 2 years back.


sorry that i took your time [and bandwidth].

Nah. Never feel this way, Tekanan. I don't specifically know your situation, but, really -- just be yourself. You know whatever that is. Find an interest; make it your life's work if need be (one that doesn't end up hurting folks, of course; just thought I'd have to say that).

Look at The Man's case -- I can't STOP making folks talk to me; you realize what a NIGHTMARE that is (not talking 'bout you, Niko2x, if you're wondering)????

All kidding aside . . . don't let this kinda' thing get to you, Tekanen. Some folks . . . you never really know what impresses them or discourages them; and they're never gonna let you know. That's THEIR problem.

You know, I wonder. I really wonder about those who go out of their way to make trouble for others. I wonder how they manage to turn it off when they go home at the end of the day. Nah, you know what? I think they still gotta live with it. I wonder how comfortable that's supposed to be for them.

Follow your heart, Tekanen, KEEP A LEVEL HEAD, feed your mind . . . and you'll be surprised what (or who) follows.

Tekanan wrote:i feel like shit.

i hate it when ppl find my naiveness annoying. i try soo hard to not be annoying [which i've come to accept that i am] and i did not get any results. in fact, i think i've made the situation worse.

last time someone told me that whatever i said was the wrong things at the wrong time. i really took it seriously. as a result, i only talked when someone converse with me. i never started a conversation. i thought this might solve the issue of me being annoying. the end result was horrible.

lets say out of 10 sentences which i speak, 2 of them were wrong things at the wrong time. it soo happens that now everytime i speak, my sentence fall in that horrible 20%. i think ppl find me more annoying than before. not only that. noone ever wants to come to talk to me. i felt lonely and realised that keeping quiet was dumb. so i decided to talk to 'blend' in.

but the years of keeping my mouth shut has taken effect. i've lost the courage to speak in a group. what comes in my head will only remain in my head. i try soo hard to think of a subject to converse and when something comes up, it only last for 5 sentence max.

i just find that noone understands how i really feel. noone understands what i really mean. and some people take that for granted. it really sux when you can't be who you really are. not because of some restriction or whatsoever, it's because you can't. you've just lost the skill.

to be frank, today i came home crying just for who i am. i feel that there's nothing i can do. i can't kill myself [no guts and it ain't worth it] and i can't rectify this problem [if i can, please god show me].

i just feel SO SAD.


sorry for such a long post. i just can't tell this situation i'm facing all these years to any of my friends or family. i don't know why i just can't. this is my last resort and if i don't let this out, i'm gonna burst like how i did 2 years back.


sorry that i took your time [and bandwidth].

Start talking. Start talking with your family. Start talking with your friends. Once you start talking more and more with those close to you, you'll be able to feel more confident about yourself and talk with people outside of your circle. Things will change.

thetenken wrote:Start talking. Start talking with your family. Start talking with your friends. Once you start talking more and more with those close to you, you'll be able to feel more confident about yourself and talk with people outside of your circle. Things will change.

sometimes i think i can converse well with my family. the part where i loose the courage to speak is when i'm with a bunch of my friends...

at one point i've come to accept that this is my flaw. i find it sad and tried to rectify it. it may have gotten worse, i don't know. but currently i'm sorta avoiding it. i know denial is one of the worst things to do, but i don't know what else to do!

The Man wrote:Nah. Never feel this way, Tekanan. I don't specifically know your situation, but, really -- just be yourself. You know whatever that is. Find an interest; make it your life's work if need be (one that doesn't end up hurting folks, of course; just thought I'd have to say that).

thx. being myself is to say whatever i wanted to say in my mind. but as i said, i've lost the courage to actually say it even though i KNOW it's nothing wrong. it's like...reflex. but i WILL try to improve on this. i guess it would be like taking one step at a time eh.

The Man wrote:(one that doesn't end up hurting folks, of course; just thought I'd have to say that).

:crazy: :beaten:
don't worry. i won't blow myself up.
:sweat:


thx for your concern guys. at least i feel a tad bit better now.
of course, the fact that The Man wrote "The Man" doesn't smoke but is still smookinn'~ and 2 hours worth of Mukodono! helped alot.
:)

Tekanan wrote:

:crazy: :beaten:
don't worry. i won't blow myself up.
:sweat:


thx for your concern guys. at least i feel a tad bit better now.
of course, the fact that The Man wrote "The Man" doesn't smoke but is still smookinn'~ and 2 hours worth of Mukodono! helped alot.
:)

Good, man. This is good to hear. Also, check your PM, man.

hey Man. how did jimmy chang do at the draft?

niko2x wrote:hey Man. how did jimmy chang do at the draft?

That'd be TIMmy Chang. http://uhathletics.hawaii.edu/Player/player.html?pid=3&aid=755

He will be a senior NEXT season. He's still very much doing collegiate throwing.

The Man wrote:That'd be TIMmy Chang. http://uhathletics.hawaii.edu/Player/player.html?pid=3&aid=755

He will be a senior NEXT season. He's still very much doing collegiate throwing.

ooops. i figure if ANYONE would know, it'd be you. ;)

niko2x wrote:ooops. i figure if ANYONE would know, it'd be you. ;)

Hahha. No problem (don't shoot me). Next year he's gonna' be major-like heard of, best believe. First Asian-American collegiate QB and perhaps will be NFL's first, as well. You folks in the Singapores, Japans, etc., spread the word 'bout this boy.

May I say . . . HOO-RAH, niko2x?

Ohh I heard about that guy before. I think I saw some of his highlights on espn once

The Man wrote:Look at The Man's case -- I can't STOP making folks talk to me; you realize what a NIGHTMARE that is (not talking 'bout you, Niko2x, if you're wondering)????

no sweat man.

About timmy chang tho. hes a jr. and STILL breaking all time records in U of H? man, i hope he can get into the NFL next yr, now THAT would be a great asian role model.

niko2x wrote:no sweat man.

About timmy chang tho. hes a jr. and STILL breaking all time records in U of H? man, i hope he can get into the NFL next yr, now THAT would be a great asian role model.

Yeah, he's breaking records, all right. They say he might surpass Ty Detmer's all-time. Yes!

On an unrelated note:
I CANNOT GET MOTIVATED TODAY. :say_oops:
:say_no: :say_sorry: :say_argh: :mecry:

I got something to say...

Drool at the sushi I made :mrgreen:

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eltinator wrote:I got something to say...

Drool at the sushi I made :mrgreen:

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Not bad, Elt. Aya-chan would be proud. :applaud:

But is it edible? :hehe:

The sushi I get is much much better: it's served up by a doll of a waitress... :) Too bad she's spoken for (long, disastrous story :( )...

bmwracer wrote:
Not bad, Elt. Aya-chan would be proud. :applaud:

But is it edible? :hehe:

The sushi I get is much much better: it's served up by a doll of a waitress... :) Too bad she's spoken for (long, disastrous story :( )...

HAHAHA yup and taste damn good too :P Now I need Aya to serve it to me in that maid outfit of hers :hehe: :hehe:

I also made it w/o the mat too since I couldn't find it :(

eltinator wrote:HAHAHA yup and taste damn good too :P Now I need Aya to serve it to me in that maid outfit of hers :hehe: :hehe:

I also made it w/o the mat too since I couldn't find it :(

Shit dude, an engineer and a cook.... Ladies, chase this boy down and make him your own!! :hehe: :hehe:

bmwracer wrote:
Shit dude, an engineer and a cook.... Ladies, chase this boy down and make him your own!! :hehe: :hehe:

hahaha all for aya :hehe: :hehe:

I actually wanted to work part time at a sushi bar. Well I still kinda do, just need to find a job opening but I bet I'll be made a waiter instead of a sous chef :beaten:

eltinator wrote:I actually wanted to work part time at a sushi bar. Well I still kinda do, just need to find a job opening but I bet I'll be made a waiter instead of a sous chef :beaten:

If you land the chef job, keep those fingernails clean! And no nose-picking, y'hear?