jinzoaya wrote:@Gohan-kun, how's going on with your study? Have you started to watch Abarenbou Mama? It's really very good. I suggest you watching it only after you've finished your exam, otherwise, I'm afriad you'll be so addicted in it and watch over and over. Hahaha~
You know, everytime I come, everytime you ask me about study, and everyone I feel guilty to have come :beaten: . You are such a good senpai :beaten: Bringing me back to reality. :ohcrap: Because, of course, in a competitive exam you can't see clearly the goal to reach, because the goal is to be better than the other people. So you just feel guilty EVERYtime you do anything else than eating-studying-sleeping. It's a choice I make to come breathing a bit over here right now. And, no matter how moved is my speech written above, I don't care of Aya-san (sry for being frank) in everyday's life. I won't let ANYTHING make me miss my life. Certainly not love for a girl, distant or as close as it is possible on the bench on university. I have so much anger inside me since I failed in last May.
That being said, I can tell you I watched abarenbou mama ep1 (thx candy) on a sunday not long time ago (don't remember when exactly, but that's not useful information :mrgreen: ). Do I have to feel guilty ? No cause I went to the cinema recently too on the week end. If I had to culpabilize, that should be because of the cinema first, because a movie is sure longer than an episode. Well, abarenbou mama is really funny, but that's not gonna change my life. The drama has a place in my life and it's gonna stay sticked where it is. Like I said, my life FIRST. I've not been thinking about abarenbou mama even on a single day of the week. Guess the fear to fail is too much in my mind. I must thank Yuna KIM in a way for that : look at her , she's younger than me but very mature, because she has to face worldwide competition and a huge pressure (little preview :
[image] ) Like studies, her occupation requires lots of training and lots of concentration. Happiness comes from painful efforts, from the difficulty pushed further, from the feeling of having being artistically meaningful , i.e satisfyed of your own performance. It's different from spontaneous happiness with Aya-chan. Yuna KIM says , to sum up, "I try not to think about difficulties or discouraging events, if possible. I trust that if I focus on goals I set up and quietly push myself forward, all the urges to give up will disappear. " That's now my new thinking system. :mrgreen: How to manage stress ~