Okay girls...this is my one shot....have fun reading it!!
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Saying Goodbye
Six handsome men in their black suit, sat in the stylishly decorated room. The atmosphere was tense and solemn.
“This is stupid…….” The one sitting nearest to the window finally broke the silence and stood up.
“Inocchi…..” his friend who sat nearest to him said in a warning voice.
Inocchi shook his head. “Enough is enough Sakamoto. Enough is enough.” He said softly, patting him on the shoulder as he walked by.
“Be gentle with him.” Hiroshi whispered softly and Inocchi nodded. “I will….”
Three younger guys sat on the sofa, both seemed to be talking softly to the one in the middle who had his head in his hands.
“Ken….” Inocchi called his name and the guy looked up. He kneeled in front of him and put his hands on the younger guy lap. “It’s time to let go….” He said softly and Miyake’s eyes started to fill with tears.
“Inocchi….this is not the time….”Go started to say, trying to protect his dear friend but Inocchi shot him a silent stare which shut him up instantly.
“You have to let go….life is full of ups and downs and we all have to go through loosing a loved one.” Inocchi said gently.
Juinichi looked at Inocchi and back at Ken with worry. He was afraid that his friend would break down again and he really didn’t want that to happen. He caught Go’s eyes but Go shook his head slightly. In some ways, he agreed with Inocchi. Ken needed to learn how to let go.
Suddenly, Ken stood up. “LET GO?!” He shouted, his eyes filled with anger and tears kept rolling down his cheeks. “HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO LET GO? I LOVED HER!!!”
“Ken…..” Sakamoto stood up and hurried over to him. “Listen to us…..” he tried to hold Ken’s shoulders.
“NO!!!” Ken shouted, shaking him off roughly. “I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT!!!!”
“Hey, guys I think it’s enough…..” Hiroshi said quickly, gently taking Ken by the arms and gave him a comforting hug. “It’s okay to hurt Ken…it’s okay to grieve….” He cooed softly.
Go sighed softly and walked towards the window and looked out. “Nice weather…”he muttered to himself.
“Yeah….perfect….” came a reply which made him jump slightly. He wasn’t expecting anyone to be next to him.
Juinichi looked at him and shrugged. “It’s amazing isn’t it? How the sky is so clear and blue while the sun shines brightly and everyone and everything just seems to be happy.” He said looking out.
“I guess….” Go answered, stuffing both his hands into his pockets. “It goes to show that no matter what, life still goes on.”
“You don’t understand….” Ken’s voice broke out through the room. “I love her. Love her so much. She was there for me every step of the way. She was there when I was sad, was there when I was happy. She listened to my problems, my deepest darkest secret and she never ever judged me. In some ways, she was the only one who believed in me.”
He hit the table with his fist, sending the glasses flying to the floor. “You have no idea how much pain I am in!” He said, clenching his fist. “You have no idea how hard it is to say goodbye to the one you love.”
“What you’re saying is very unfair Ken….”Sakamoto told him calmly. “The 5 of us have gone through pain as well. We have all gone through the pain of letting our loved one go.”
Ken looked up and glared at him. He took a few steps towards him. “Have you ever feel your loved one’s life slip away in your hands? Watch her take her last breathe? Feel her life slipping away?”
Sakamoto didn’t answer. “No?” Ken questioned and gave a smirk. “I have….and you know what? I felt it was I who killed her.”
Ken suddenly grabbed Sakamoto by the lapels of his blazer. “I KILLED HER!!!” He screamed.
“KEN! STOP IT!” Inocchi shouted, breaking both of them apart.
Go and Juinichi hurried over as well. “Look, the last thing she would have wanted was for you to blame yourself.” Go said to Ken.
“Yeah….how would she feel when she sees you this way?” Juinichi added.
“Then she shouldn’t have left me.” Ken answered curtly.
Hiroshi sighed softly and looked at his watch. “She didn’t want to leave you. She had too….”
“I really don’t know what you guys want from me?!! Dance? Laugh? Celebrate?” Ken spat angrily.
“No.” Inocchi answered. “We want to help you but you’re not letting us in.”
“Help? Yeah….why don’t you just help me get her back? Help me bring her back to life!”
With that said, Ken scrambled to his feet and ran out of the room, slamming the door behind him with a loud Bang!
“I’ll go after him.” Go offered but Sakamoto held his hands back.
“No, let him be by himself for awhile. He needs some time to calm down and think.” Sakamoto said.
“But….” Go looked worriedly at the closed door.
”Don’t worry. Ken is not that stupid to hurt himself.” Hiroshi assured Go who reluctantly nodded his head.
“I’ve never seen him so broken up before….” Juinchi said, slumping against the chair. “He’s always acting as if he’s strong, as if he didn’t care. But deep inside, he was as vulnerable as each and every one of us in this room.”
Go nodded. “I’ve known him for so long and he’s someone who never bothered his friends with his problems. He carries his own weight on his shoulders by himself. So I guess, when she appeared, she became his sole supporter, his steady wall to lean on and now she’s gone….his wall has crumbled…leaving him alone….”
“But he have us…he’ll always have us.” Hiroshi said.
“Yes he will…and he knows that. But he needs her as well.” Inocchi added understandingly. “He needs someone other than us to support him.”
Sakamoto took out his pack of cigarettes, grabbed a stick and lit it up. “The weirdest thing is, I’ve never seen him so serious with anyone before.” He said after inhaling deeply.
“You know, all of us need someone like her….”Hiroshi stated.
A cloud of white smoke filled the room and Hiroshi started to move a little further from it. One by one the others took a stick and started to smoke. They did that every time they were stressed out. “The concert is coming up. How is he going to perform?” Sakamoto asked, the leader in him suddenly appearing.
“I don’t think this is the right time Sakamoto.” Inocchi said sternly.
“Then when is the right time? It’s only a week away. If today isn’t the funeral, we would’ve been practicing. Our fans paid to see us perform not to see us mope and screw up.” Sakamoto shot back.
“Oh God! You’re so insensitive sometimes!” Go scolded, throwing his hands in the air.
“Actually, I agree with Sakamoto.” Hiroshi said softly and Juinichi nodded.
“Dead or alive, the show must go on. Tickets have been sold and we can’t disappoint our fans.” Juinichi said.
“Put yourself in Ken’s position. How are you going to perform?” Go asked, frowning at the three of them as if they had betrayed him.
“I would think of what she would want me to do and I know she would want Ken to go on with life….”Juinichi said softly.
*KnOCk KnOcK*
The conversation was interrupted and the 5 guys looked up.
“Come in.” Sakamoto called out.
A man opened the door. “Sorry to disturb, but the car is ready to leave.” He said, bowing slightly and retreated back before closing the door.
The 5 man stood up. “I’ll go find Ken.” Go offered, heading towards the door, but as he placed his hands on the door knob, the door flew open, making him jump back in surprise.
Ken stared at him, his eyes bloodshot but at least he wasn’t crying anymore. “I heard it was time.” He said softly.
Go nodded. “Yes.” He answered, helping Ken straighten his tie. “Let’s go.”
Sakamoto grabbed the bouquet of flowers by the table and handed it to Ken. He gave Ken a slight nod and patted his shoulders in comfort.
The six of them walked out of the room and took the lift down towards the black limousine waiting for them.
The ride to the cemetery was a quiet one. All six of them had sunglasses on and Ken was quietly holding onto the bouquet of flowers and looking straight ahead. His expression on his face was unreadable.
They arrived at the cemetery shortly, there was not a single being around except them. Ken had said that he didn’t want anyone else but the 6 of them to be at the funeral and they didn’t question him any further. They knew he had his own reasons.
One by one, they got out of the limousine and Ken was the last to step out. The 5 waited for him to take the first step towards the newly carved tombstone and followed him behind.
The weather definitely didn’t match their solemn mood. If it was cloudy and dark, it would have fitted the atmosphere perfectly. Only that it wasn’t. It was shiny, bright and the birds seemed to be happily chirping on their trees.
Ken slowly lay the bouquet of flowers against the tombstone and kneeled down. He touched the marble gently and swallowed hard. “I’m not going to cry baby…” he said softly. “I’ve cried enough and I know you want me to be strong now.”
Sakamoto, Go, Juinichi, Hiroshi and Inocchi stood behind Ken trying to fight back their own tears.
“You’ve taught me how to live, how to feel. But most of all, you taught me how it was to love someone. Thank you.”
A crystal tear slid down Sakamoto’s cheeks and he hastily wiped it away.
Ken took out his handkerchief and wiped the wordings on the tombstone. “I really don’t know how to go on without you. But I will try. I will try for you. Saying goodbye to you is not easy. But don’t worry. You’ll always be here…with me…” he said, touching his heart. “Sooner or later, I’ll be with you again and when that time comes, I’ll never let you go again.”
“I’m sorry that our time together had been short. But I assure you that it was the most happiest and sweetest days of my life. Thank you for giving me that chance to be with you. Thank you for being patient with me and thank you for never judging me. Goodbye…no….not goodbye. I should say, till we meet again. I love you.” Ken whispered and stood up unsteadily.
The emotions in him fighting to burst out but he bravely held it back. If it wasn’t for Go and Juinichi holding him up, he would’ve crumpled to the ground. He bowed deeply, one last time before turning around and walking away.
At that moment, the tears he had been holding back, flowed down freely. His friends followed him back to the limousine and they drove off.
Ken looked back one last time, leaving behind the one he loved deeply. “Go, thanks for putting such great and meaningful words on the tombstone.” He said.
“Hey….no problem.” Go replied.
The wind blew gently against the oak tree which provided shade above the tombstone which read:
* Mira, beloved friend and companion. May the angels from above be with you always in the big dog heaven above.*
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